Bee Mindful

Bee mindful… there’s sooo many bees in my backyard. They always remind me that there’s work to be done. If you’re a nature lover and or looking for ways to be mindful during this time. I’ll be sharing lots of my perspective and full sets and videos of my hikes etc. on my Patreon. Join only if you can. Much love 🖤

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No Longer Silent #WCW

#WCW a popular hashtag on this here Wednesday.

I wanted to use the trendiness of this hashtag to shine some more light on how some of these amazing women we celebrate and champion have been victims of sexual assaults. This is not to darken the in most cases harmless celebration of women we think are amazing, but to just raise more awareness and hopefully more respect for women because we really never know what they’re going through behind those smiles we compliment or ask them to make. I was inspired to make this post based on a poem I wrote a while back that spoke from a woman’s POV. (You can read the poem below).

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My good friend Claire asked me the other day and forgive me if I don’t quote it correctly, “what am I standing for or fighting for?” Something like that. And I said “you what everything.” I went on to say I’m not sure how I can get people to understand that. But I remember now. I’m a artist and through my art I will speak on the things I love and the things I stand for and want to fight for. I wanted to start this with how I’m personally connected to this subject.

My Mom, My Maw Maw, Chelle, Jalisa, Claire. 5 women who I know personally and/or on a more intimate level that have admitted to me that they’ve been sexually assaulted and gave me consent to share their photos for this post.

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I want this to be an ongoing thing so if you can relate and consent to me sharing your photo, I’d love to come take your portrait if you’re local. Or if you’re out of town you can send me one. Message me if this interests you.

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The poem is titled “No Longer Silent”

They never really can understand my discernment when It comes to men

Like I pretend to be afraid

I play shy

My no’s mean yes

I just rather play hard to get

Cuz I’m easy at this game of dog chasing after cat

That I actually enjoy sex I just say don’t touch me

That my baby… My baby… Is not a product of a rape gone worse

That my skin doesn’t leak self hate through pores like alcohol I force down my throat to erase memories that only leave momentarily…

That God…

That I’m not sure I still believe in, hasn’t cursed me with a figure that makes men feel the right to disrespect me

That I actually like the abuse I’ve received since the age of 13… Why did my mother silence me?

Why did it take years of being raped

7 attempts on a life I’m not even good enough to take

Raising a child I wasn’t even sure God wanted me to create

And if he did

Why has he chosen such fate for me

I was THIRTEEN

Raped almost everyday by my stepfather

SEVENTEEN RAPED BY SOMEONE I WENT TO SCHOOL WITH

TWENTY raped by a coworker who I thought was my friend

TWENTY-FIVE again by a stranger who became the… Father of my beautiful little girl… WHY NOW!?

Do I want to speak up after being silenced since a kid “This is family business and you don’t tell outside people about what happened to you”

But Momma never listened

All she cared about was making sure stepdad didn’t hit her

So maybe having sex with me was payment for him to not make her bleed

Instead it would be me

You see… Now I know why I speak…

It’s so that little girl like me…

Doesn’t get into the habit of remaining silent…

Upcoming Shows

 

This 33rd Jesus year of being a #VirGOAT I’m returning (** looks around**ha ha) to the stage to perform and host some new #spokenword here in #NewOrleans
 
9/7 – #TheCornerCollective A new weekly open mic every Thursday @ Cafe Istanbul hosted by myself, G, DC Paul, and the incredible iCon
 
9/15 – #PoetryatTheBoxSpot brought to you by myself and J’s Creole Wingery… a dope open mic in the open space known as The Box Spot
 
9/25 – #Outspoken I’m one of the featured artists at this night of #poetry #comedy & #R&B to be held at Rebellion Bar
 
I have free events, donation based events, and the low price of $10 events!!! All I need is your beautiful faces in the audience or on stage if you bout that life

Sex Vs Love 2017

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Annual event where some of the dopest poets and singers come together to battle it out with their best sex and love pieces… there will be a live band, food, drinks and much more! You do not want to miss it!

Freestyle by the Lake

img_7500I took this picture then I wrote a poem:

No strings attached, I’m an aquatic plant who’s roots free float across the ocean like bottles with messages inside them…
(I’m him)
I dream of freedom
Threesomes
People who think for themselves
Open minds to further open mines
And a love so unconditional my fuck ups look perfect…
(I’m perfect)
When you don’t compare me to any man.
I’m not any man
And… A flaw is only something you saw in someone else that I lack
(See me)
See black
See king
See things you’ve never seen in this light
Or this life
See right…
through me if you so choose to…
Like no windows
No buildings
No walls are there to tell you I exist.
See an infinite amount of space open enough for you to be yourself without ever questioning the shit…
(I Just live)
On my own terms
Less thoughts about others thoughts about my decisions
That’s none of my business
I can’t put my happiness in the balance of temporary friendships
(I’m dying)
In good health for now so there’s time to love more people
Do what feels right
And accept that I might get it wrong sometimes
Right now…
(I’m alive)
So I might as well enjoy this shit…

**New Album** Black Cloud 3/9/16 Track List

  
In 2013, John began production of his 5th spoken word album black cloud. After recording most of the tracks, the computer containing all of his raw unmastered  files crashed. Having to record everything over, John became frustrated and chose not to release the project. Until one day after several personal battles with himself he decided the world needed to hear this album. Instead of recording it over he decided to use the raw unmastered tracks to add to the metaphor that is Black Cloud. Inspired by a Joe Budden song, John began writing and recording this album detailing some of his most personal thoughts and feelings. His battles with depression, love, religion, and so much more. 3 years later he’s starting to see the sun and feel it’s time to let the black cloud that’s been hanging over him pass so he can move forward…

The album is set to release on March 9, 2016 $9.99

You can pre-order the album at a lower price of $7.99 on Feb. 22, 2016 on iTunes 

The album will stream on all major digital platforms including Apple Music, Tidal, and Spotify on the release date! 

Track list:
1. Intro 
2. Are You Happy Now 

3. August 29th 

4. The Other Shoes (ft. Keya) 

5. Honey

6. Epic interlude 

7. Epic Love Poem

8. Color Struck 

9. Pancakes 

10. Big Bang Theory (ft. Rahim Glaspy) 

11. We Are One (ft. Lyrikill, Blue Orleenz, and Calligraphy)

12. My thoughts, Your Words Outro

Submit to the New Erotic Anthology HEDO

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HEDO, short for hedonism, is an acronym that stands for “Helping Eliminate Diseases Orgasmically” A new erotic Anthology we are working on set to be released in 2017 featuring writers from all over the world. It will feature short stories and poems where some of the proceeds will be donated in an effort to aid health clinics around the country. if you’re interested in the project please submit by emailing: SWMNpublishing@gmail.com